So I've been ignoring DA for a while now... Journal entries and deviations that I want to reply to but I just really haven't the... drive, i guess would be the best word... to do it. Please don't be mad if I haven't replied to comments or anything >.< I'm not ignoring anyone, at least, I don't mean to...

There's a lot of stuff going on in my life right now... okay so maybe one thing... Some of you know about her (yes i said her) and what she's done/doing to me... it sucks... leaving something half finished like that... thought i'm not even sure it started... *sigh*

Might as well update some stuff

~Digital art/Art in general~
So I finally have the programs I need... I'm slowly working on some sort of art for my dragon mascot Radiax, who I've developed on my site to the point where she really is a part of my personality.


~Anime North~
All of the photos are up on my facebook. None of them are really good enough to be posted up on this thing...


~Photoshoot~
So the photoshoot was awesome, at least most of it. Once we got to Chinatown, it started going downhill... and most of it being my fault... stupid personality... stupid non-existent self-esteem...
Once we got to the fire fountain thingammajig, I thought maybe things would turn around... they didn't. While everyone was taking a group shot, me and my brother were thinking of some poses that I could do, as well as him trying to cheer me up, when I hear my best friend calling. So I start walking up, and he says, and I quote, "No. We need him, not you."
I wanted to leave right there, and if it wasn't for my brother having to get home with me, then I would have. What made it worse was, I found out later, that the photographer DID ask for both of us. That one sentence, from my best friend no less, ruined the entire day...

Sorry if the journal seems a little depressed, but that's kinda how I feel when I stop and think... especially when I hate my personalty that much...